Kluang, Johor?

An "urusan seri paduka baginda" letter came today.
stamped "suruhanjaya perkhidamatan awam malaysia"
all the way from 62502 putrajaya.

"suruhanjaya ini mengucapkan tahniah atas kejayaan cik dalam peperiksaan khas memasuki perkhidmatan Pegawai Tadbir dan Diplomatik..."
"anda dikehendaki mengikuti Program P.T.D. Assessment Centre (PAC) bagi tujuan penilaian selanjutnya..."

to cut the long story short, i'm expected to report myself at Intan Kampus Wilayah Selatan in Kluang on 8th of Sept.

why Kluang?
why not Bukit Kiara's INTAN?

"ahem..." i heard a small voice inside me, nudging my tiny lil' corner of my heart, reminding me that that is just the kind of attitude i was suppose to fight...
now that i'm pretty 'settled' at home, being pampered with all luxuries and comfort of being a stay-home young working adult, i now find it hard to get my butt up, pack and leave when there's a call and need to do so.
this is exactly the kind of behaviour i was against, fighting tooth and nail to get it out of my system before it's too late to 'uproot and disperse'...

i'm afraid i might loose the spirit
i'm afraid i might grow lukewarm, then cold, eventually
i'm afraid that i might no longer have the courage to change
i'm afraid that i'm beginning to stray...

i need to know that it's okay to be afraid sometimes
i need to understand that it's only normal that we human are afraid of changes
i need to remember that i'm never alone in this journey
and that i've made the right decision to follow Him wherever He leads.

so... what now?
PSD?
Monbukagakusho?
KPLI?
which one's for me?
(scratch head)
(head tilted to the right)
(confused...) \(@_@)/